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Suswati Basu's avatar

Thank you for sharing. I have the same disorder, which is irritating for meetings etc. 🙄

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Saint-Lazare's avatar

You're welcome. Yes, it takes you out of everyday/social life, and it's a permanent fight. But we're not alone in this 😘 Here whenever you want to talk.

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Suswati Basu's avatar

Absolutely, I hope you were able to get some support for this 🙏🏾 I'm here too if you want to chat.

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Saint-Lazare's avatar

🤍🤍🤍

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Katharine Kapodistria's avatar

This is an expertly-crafted piece of writing. I can feel the current of pain flowing through it. It really got to me and it's left me with such a hollow feeling. I wasn't aware that MD existed until today. Thank you for sharing this piece. However loosely-based on your experience, it can't have been easy to write, but I hope perhaps writing it helped in some way. I wish you well on your journey x

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Saint-Lazare's avatar

Thank you for your comment. It was indeed the hardest thing I ever wrote, and also the scariest, because I didn't know how it would be perceived. Positive messages such as yours really helps 🙏🏻

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The Vampire Dorian Moreau's avatar

Was captured from beginning to end!

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Saint-Lazare's avatar

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

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The Ear Implant Foundation's avatar

This was captivating and well written. Though there wasn't a word for it, I'm sure now I had a bit of this disorder when I was a kid, and probably even a little today. It's a little like ADD, but instead of attention bouncing around everywhere, attention turns to the imagination.

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Saint-Lazare's avatar

Thank you, and I'm glad if I brought a bit of an answer.

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Aurelian Ashmore's avatar

I read this slowly, without skipping a line.

You walked into the fire and wrote from within it. I could see it clearly.

This was not an easy read.

May the music return one day—without burning.

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Saint-Lazare's avatar

Thank you for taking the time to read and leave this wonderful comment, I'm honored 🙏🏻

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Asteria Geisterblum's avatar

This is such a powerful piece, and as you know, I went through the same thing—among other things. MD eats your soul and I can’t emphasise how proud I am of you to take the needed steps to pull yourself out of it. And it’s already one week! That’s awesome!

It’s hard work and painful and stressful but you do it anyway and writing this must have been so so difficult 💛 and as you know, reach out whenever you need to. Doing it alone makes it all the harder and you deserve things to be comfortable and easy for once 🥹

You’re amazing, Lazar, and I’m cheering for you harder than I have cheered for myself at times

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Saint-Lazare's avatar

Thank you for your kind words, that means a lot 🫀🫀🫀

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